BEREAVED MOMENTS

In pain, Insane
all over again
One heart that cries
Two eyes that rain

You are, you were
You will be here
In my random smiles
In my aimless tears
What for is then, this misery?
When in my mirror, its your face I see

But when illusion breaks
and craving holds
Nothing remains
Nothing consoles

You took it all
And left me behind
What for I stay?
What's left that's mine?

You were it all
My hero, My guy
No reason at all
For final goodbye
I only get closer
Each time I try
Every heartbeat a burden
Every breath is a sigh
Why did you go?
just tell me why?

THE BREAKUP

You have a perfect package, with a brilliant job

But all I needed,
was a heart to listen
a mind to speak
and lots of time for me to rob!

You say you were to gift me a superb luxury car

But all I needed,was a peaceful journey of nights
and as my gift? everynight
just one shining star!

Diamonds you say you would have gotten me home

But hey! I could never make out the worth of that stone!
All I needed,
was a hand to hold on,
a bond to boast of,
and a quiet carefree street to roam

You got into too much
when little was enough
I wasn't difficult,
But you made me tough!
Here, take back your heart
as I respectfully reject it in furl
I am sorry dude,
But I was never your girl!

GROUNDED

While I see my feet firmly grounded,

Which reckless bit of earth was that? I ponder,

That such snatched its gravity, so as to keep just your skin here

And to set your soul to wander?

If at all I knew

With all my strength, I would have pushed and spun the globe around,

And would have stood there instead of you.



They tell me you are over

I growl that it ain't true

Fighting the world, scared inside

Darling just one clue,

Tell me where are you?


Waves come, touch and go

To touch my soul, I doubt they'll ever know

Time has stopped as the moments flow

To move ahead my footprints yet don't know



Tape of my memory, I repeatedly forward, play, stop & rewind

I took millions of steps to move away,

But after you, it’s all blank behind.

With my skin so abandoned and soul so bounded,

helplessly I see my feet firmly grounded

I so stand here, since you left me so

With this only bliss, with this only woe

That to move ahead my footprints yet don't know

That to move ahead my footprints will never know.

JAMMED

A lot to listen
very little to say
silence, I choose,
is a better way

Be it not mine
Let it be then your way
All I can do is stare
And all I can do is pray

Or may be no one to hear
Or may be false is every ray
I guess they already killed my heart
And the soul, now I give it away

Trapped in this skin
I count my breath this way
That I cry Everynight
So that I can smile everyday

ONE WEIRD REQUEST;One weird moment

Lie to me

tell me all's okay
tell me all will be fine
tell me I still have it in me
tell me all my dreams are still mine

tell me I'll always be beautiful
tell me I'll always shine
tell me I can still make it happen
tell me that I still have time

tell me its all true
and shall believe you, the promise is mine
For once lie to me I beg of you
For once, please, I won't mind!


 

Lost

क्यों दिल में अब कोई शोर नहीं
क्यों ख़्वाबों की कोई  डोर नहीं

ये किस हाल में छोड़ गए तुम
वो क्या था मेरे अन्दर जो तोड़ गए तुम

कि अब न कोई चाहत है न कोई उम्मीद
न कोई दुश्मन है न कोई मीत

एक अँधेरे कूएं  में गुमशुदा सी ज़िंदगी
न किसी हाथ का सहारा है, न सहारे की त्रिष्णगी

मैं यूं गुम हो चुकी हूँ अपने आप में कहीं
कि कोई सुर या भावना  मेरे इन शब्दों के आलाप में नहीं

बस एक सवाल है
बस एक मलाल है

कि ये किस हाल में छोड़ गए तुम
वो क्या था मेरे अन्दर जो तोड़ गए तुम

 

MAIN APNI CHITA KO AAG LAGA CHUKI HOON

ज़िन्दगी की सारी अर्जियां ठुकरा चुकी हूँ

मैं अपनी चिता को आग लगा चुकी हूँ

क्या तोड़ पायेगा कोई मेरी परछाइयों को

मैं अपने हाथों से अपनी हस्ती मिटा चुकी हूँ

जिन सिरहानों में अपने ख्वाब बटोरे सोती थी

अपनी आहों अपने आंसुओं को वहीँ दफना चुकी हूँ

मुस्कुराना भूल जाने का ग़म भी नहीं है

अपने ग़म पे इतनी बार मुस्कुरा चुकी हूँ

अपनी ख्वाहिशों को अपनी साँसों के हवाले कर दिया

और अपनी साँसों को ही पराया बना चुकी हूँ

दर्द और राहतों के बीच की लकीर मिटा चुकी हूँ

मैं अपनी चिता को आग लगा चुकी हूँ